Suicidal feelings?

Im 19 years old male. I have been feeling very depressed up and down for years but as i have got older its got worse.

I have had suicidal feeling on and off for a couple of years. Some times i feel good other times the complete opposite, very depressed and really angry and suicidal.

Ive just had a suicidal episode and come home, my familiy arent intestead at all and are of little support. My mother is a depressive and finds it a joke, just goes on about moving house and ignores my upsets and problems.

I am waiting a siciatrist which has taken over 7 months so far. I get in a state some times, cry and get hot ect..

I have had paranoia problems and terrible confidence which results in me having no friends and no job at the moment.

I just got socalise with people at a work place or social event in the way I would like to - I also have acne scars and ance spots which appear to also add to my problems.

I dont no what to do and feel there is little support, please help.

The fact that you've "opened up" enough to ask this question is a very positive sign. I've found that people who TRULY are so depressed, (anti-depressants work, but much more is needed in conjunction), don't talk about it, don't warn anyone, leave notes or ANYTHING. No one here can evaluate everything that's making you speak of suicide, it's all relevant. I'd only venture to say that you definitely need to talk with someone, (therapist), probably get some meds until you stabilize & PUT SUICIDE OUT OF YOUR MIND. I had a client who really intended to kill herself with her gun; a friend had seen the "signs" & taken out the cartridges. She was so upset she called the Crisis line, & the cops traced her, & took her to the psyciatric ward where, believe me, she learned A LOT. She's had many happy years since then, is married & has a son, & will always be grateful to her friend. & often, the people you "hope" will be the most understanding, (like your mother), are NOT. Most often, it takes someone very objective. Honestly, I don't think acne should have anything to do with WHO YOU ARE, although I sort of comprehend why it compounds the way you feel about yourself. Please get support from someone. It's out there, & you won't regret it.