Im confused!!!!!?

if i have a terrible fear of cancer and hiv, do i have ocd or hypochondriasis? whats the difference? I constantly fear getting some sort of disease that i cant get rid of and dying a horrible death. i have been checked for every sort of cancer, i.e. brain, ovarian, stomach, breast, skin, lymph node... all negative of course. Then i became obsessed w/ hiv (after i had ruled out all types of cancer). ive had 3 hiv tests (every 3 months for 9 months), all negative but everyday i worry about having some kind of exposure. it consumes my thoughts. i do have an anxiety disorder but where did all of this come from so out of the blue? i guess i need reassurance that you cant get hiv from kissing, touching, or anything like that. i found out my boyfriend had sex w/ someone else while we were broke up and i havent had sex w/ him b/c im so phobic of catching something. He did kiss me and I had a cut on my lip (there was a scab) and Im just absolutely freaking out...HELP!

Actually, it sounds like you have a phobia. An irrational fear of illness.

Hypochondria is when you think you have diseases you don't actually have (really simplified explanation.) And I doubt the phobia springs from OCD as much as your anxiety disorder, since OCD sufferers usually have rituals they perform to protect them from harm, like opening and closing a door exactly five times, etc.

I can reassure you that you don't get HIV from everyday touching. Since your boyfriend was with someone else, it would be a good idea for him to have and STD test, but the chances are still pretty slim.