Am I ugly or am I just real..

Hey! Im an 18 year old black girl (dark-skinned), with medium length and jet black hair, 5' 41/2", slim, nice boobs and booty, nice smile, cheeks with dimples on them...Whenever I go places, a lot of men or a few men stare at me as if I've got a big mole on my face or something, but, No...I don't..They sometimes look back as I walk away or look at me as if they're puzzled about something. I tend to make eye contact with people, especially guys, it just comes naturally. Is that why they stare at me afterwards, possibly because he thinks that I'm interested in him...Or am I just really that beautiful...Sometimes I feel pretty and sometimes I feel ugly...I don't think I'm that striking, but my friends, family and ex-boyfriends, tell me that I'm gorgeous, I am really having a hard time accepting those compliments because I honestly don't believe that I am.. And the guys I referred to are of various backgrounds and race...Caucasian, hispanic, and black, are the most common.

Perhaps your confusion can be explained by the fact that no one else is seeing you through your insecure self-image. They just see your physical exterior; you see yourself through the prism of your uncertainty about yourself. Why not just accept the adulation of the masses? Or is it this attention itself that troubles you on some level, makes you feel objectified?